LOVE ME, EMBRACE ME AND LEAVE ME NEVER!

Dear God,

I didn't mean the words I said yesterday,

I didn't mean the screams I screamed yesterday,

Nor the sighs that I sighed,

Or the moans that I moaned,.

Dear God,

I didn't mean any of those foolish things,

And wished unsaid the words that I said,

And the deeds that I did,

It is just sometimes...

They come flying out of my lips

And speeding through my mind

Those words and thoughts

All of You to be unkind.

Dear God,

If I am to learn through hardship,

Then through hardship I must,

But there is one thing

Of You that I must ask...

Forgiveness if in learning I am slow,

If in sorrow I often wallow,

If I despair for tomorrow...

Forgive me of my weaknesses,

When (inevitably) I go to pieces,

Pick me up and bind me back,

Bond me always to Your pleasure

Love me, embrace me

And leave me never!

.....................

I don't know about you, but I often have unworthy thoughts of our One Lord God. Over this week I suffered from food poisoning and a day later my eyes got infected and light-sensitive until I was running from shadows to shadows hiding from the blinding sun. Where is the wisdom in such ailments? To lose control of my bodily functions and fearing the sun like a demented vampire? Oh, brother.

Now, less than 24 hours later here I am. Cured (apparently) and contented. And this is the wisdom - gratitude and personal hygiene. After 43 years this is where I am, at the very basics of spiritual understanding. There is no better education than experience, I guess. But I will not be too self-satisfied in this almanac, I don't want God to send another illness anytime soon. 

After all, I am only a sinner. And a learner sinner at that.

Have a beautiful and healthy day, sunshine.

wa min Allah at-taufiq

Hate has no place in Islam

Love will show the Way