|I may be a Grizzly Bear. But I can hurt too...|
1. People and God
How I prefer to deal with you, Love,
Than with people.
People who are conditioned
By their past and expectations, fears
And hopes of a bright future.
People who are not able
To be in the present with me.
Like icebergs, they float into my life,
And when I get too close,
The ice invisible underneath
Breaches my hull,
And I am left adrift,
Cut by their words
And their action,
Though they mean me
No harm at all.
O’ Lord, you mean me no harm,
But You would do nothing, and indeed
You would do everything to
Ensure my happiness,
Which is in Your presence.
I have a thin skin and a well-rounded ear sensitive to the slightest tone of sarcasm, ridicule and insult. This does not bode well when one has to deal with people, whether at home, in the work place or abroad.
The above prose was written some years back. Evidently someone must have hurt (or angered) me by their careless words or gestures. Perhaps they did not even mean any harm, but it was still an 'ouch' moment nonetheless. I wonder what happened... It is too far in the past to recollect.
But now, with the benefit of hindsight, I think I have a lot to be thankful for. After all, if I was not hurt by such words, I would not have turned to God, crying ink and prose from my eyes.
I am thinking that God is saying, "Do not be so angry or hurt by people. For sometimes I use them to chase you to Me. For sometimes you forget how I miss you and how much I desire your attention. Especially if you are seeking comfort and assurance. Is there any one else that you can seek aid from? Am I not the Abode of the Broken-hearted? Am I not the Healer of Hearts?!
So I am resting my words today on the support of Divine Love. I must be crazy to wait for the world to chase me to our Lord. But we are silly that way sometimes. And now I am hearing a comment - "Just sometimes??"
Hehehe. Oh, alright - We are always silly that way. We are the Silly Ones of God. And none can stand our appearance and nonsense except for God and the Prophet(pbuh).
I find that thought somehow comforting...
wa min Allah at-taufiq
Hate has no place in Islam
Love will show the Way