"Why did you try to kill yourself?"
"Because God hasn't forgiven me." I muttered.
"You silly-billy. Of course He hasn't...,
Because you haven't forgiven Him."
Despair, anger, sorrow. Let's face it, sunshine. We blame God all the time. We just dress our dissatisfaction and disguise our grumbling by blaming some indirect cause, when all causes occur through His Will.
We have been taught that there is always someone to be blamed. Who left the fridge door open? Who did not keep an eye on the baby? Who let mother die? Who took a loan which he cannot pay? Who ran over Spotty? You? Your husband? Your wife? Your friend? The neighbour next door? There is always someone to be blamed but at the end of it all, you only end up blaming God, albeit indirectly.
Don't play the blame game, pet. Stick to forgiveness and understanding... because if you cruelly judge God, then one day will come when you will realise that, all along, you have been cruelly judging yourself... Then where will you run to?
Was it not Rumi himself who said that this world is perfect, and whatever woe and ugliness we see in it is through our own mirror and a reflection of our own imperfections?
Oh come on now! There must be someone I can blame. Yes, sunshine. You can blame Love. The very reason behind your existence...
Think about it.